Peanut veg noodles

Today I started my new antidepressants, taking one along with my morning meds. As a result, I have been feeling absolutely wiped out all day. If this doesn’t improve in the next few days, I’m going to have to start taking them in the evening instead, as I have too much to do to be this exhausted.

At the same time, mum has been eating, and eating, to the point that I looked up if the new headache meds cause increased appetite. And yes, they do, which makes a lot of sense. Unfortunately they also take some time to fully stabilise the headache prevention, which is why mum is back to clutching her head and asking if anyone is going to do anything to help her.

I find it so hard when mum is in pain and I can’t do anything to help her, particularly as, even on good days like today, she doesn’t really understand when I explain that she’s taking tablets for her headaches but they’re still settling in. Mum no longer seems to grasp the concept of meditation taking time to work: if she takes anything, she expects it to work immediately, and gets distressed when it doesn’t. I’m still hoping to find some kind of support that will help me help mum with these things.

The only vaguely constructive things I have managed to do today were calling a company that does appliance repairs (no answer, left a message), posting on an IoW Facebook group to ask for recommendations of other appliance repair companies, and installing a task list app to get everything I need to do out of my head and onto a screen.

I also, of course, cooked dinner: a simple noodle stirfry with a peanut sauce. Mum thoroughly enjoyed it, and will continue to do so as long as I don’t let her know it has peanut butter (“urgh!”) in it.

I won’t tell her if you don’t. 🤫